gotta start now, while i can
Mood:  blue

while i still have some memories, i gotta write it down now, so i dont lose them...

i will always remember, those nights i spent in my room, crying alone.  those hours i spent, with the knife pressed against my throat.  fear was the only thing that held me back from applying some pressure on the sharp point.  i was afraid that i might've missed something, maybe there was a purpose to live for, and i overlooked it.  

im glad to have feared, because i have found reasons to live.  i have a new friend now, who did much to save my life from my own blade.  her name is chrissie.  she is an angel, to my belief.  i shall write more about her, and my stay at her house, and her sister, karen, my best friend.  there is much to write about... i will write down everything i still remember, so i will never forget, and i shall write down all the truths, and only the truths, that i've hid for everyone, so i dont forget my epic battles agaisnt fate and against myself...